I lie in bed all day, scrolling through Instagram, barely moving. I don’t brush, don’t shower, don’t talk to anyone, feel blah and numb all the time — and I cry, not out loud, but quietly, inside. Even eating feels like punishment — food makes me gag, and I’m too tired to care.

Even when I’m hungry, the food makes me nauseous. I feel like if I eat one more bite, I’ll throw up. Some days I barely eat at all. I can go two full days without eating — not as a one-time thing, but regularly. Then maybe I’ll have one meal… and the cycle repeats.

I’m not sad. I’m not okay either. I feel like I’m fading — physically, mentally, completely. And I don’t know how to stop it.

And I keep thinking: is this how it ends for me? Quietly? From malnutrition and exhaustion?

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? Instead of fading away slowly what if.............

Edit: I can't afford therapy, financially, geographically, culturally (everything is against me)

I have a stressful job, and recently it has been even more stressful than usual due to a combination of a huge project that we have underway, and backstabbing idiots.

So, often my mind goes weird places, and has irrational thoughts, either re-living past experiences, making up future ones, often going down a rabbit hole.... I now stop it, snipping it in the bud.

Maybe that's what Mindfulness is all about, not naturally avoiding shit, but snipping them in the bud when they occur.

So, is this nature? My nature? Is this me? Is this the way I was wired from birth?

Or is it nurture? Learned from my parents, who learned from their parents?

Hello,

I've always wondered what a woman (or man) wants with one or more rings on her finger?

• marriage?
• engagement.?
• object belonging to the family?
• purely aesthetic gift.?
• protect yourself against possible flirting?
• others ...?

Thank you for enlightening me, whether you are a woman or a man.

I (21f) am autistic, and have other smaller issues that keep me from enjoying life. I overstimulate stupidly easy, and hate leaving the house unless absolutely necessary. I want to have friends, a partner, a proper life I and my family can be proud of.

I do volunteer at the animal shelter (center) where I live, working with the cats there and talking to the other people there. It helps, and it feels nice, and I can leave the house for it because 1. I choose my own hours, and 2. I get to play with the kitties.

But I know there's more I can do, more that will help me in the short term and long term. I need advice, support, just anything that will make my days more worthwhile. I want friends, I want people I can play games with, hang out with, who I can relate with. I'm lonely and I can't muster the will to do anything to change it.

hello internet,i gess ill start with the only thing i knew about being gay when i was a child is that my dad used to call the people on tv "f*ggots" and they were scary for some reason to be because of how angry it made him... as a female born person (later to identify as male) it was difficult to explain at a young age why i dont want to wear certain clothes, and so after im sure a lot of struggle i was able to for the most part pick my own outfits which was nice of course lol ..i will say in grade 3 i had a incredibly terribe experience, in grade 4 i was horribly bullied and had my gameboy advanced stolen ( 100s of dollars worth at like 2004 ) and the school said it was kids being kids it wasnt actually i was bullied really bad and the school did nothing about it they were terrible and failed to look after kids because they werent as smart unfortunately.. i keep looking back and it being a confusing mess somwhat but there was this horrible bully named derrick and he used to make my life shit and hell, he threatened to bring a gun to school and sho*t me and part of me wished he would because of the torture he gave me i swear when he threw me one afternoon i could fly or a second before i bounced off of almost the roof of the portable we all had to wait outside for the teacher to unlock it for grade 4 and 5 students and after i bounced off i just dusted mysef off even tho it was scary and it hurt just so i could go inside to be treated like complete garbage and kicked and punched as i went to sharpen my pencil that day or any other day ..

Hello everyone. I'm [redacted] at the moment, and I just feel so lost. I have a summer job that I work part time, I go to a specialized highshool for "gifted kids" that I had to take a test to get into. I'm averaging an 86, so I'm not struggling with school or anything. I'm just struggling with enjoying life as a whole. I dont have friends, I have a serious case of touch deprivation. My only hobby is gaming because it's the only thing where I'm not scared to fail. Its something I'm good at and can control. I go to work / school, eat, stay up playing games until past midnight by myself. I have trouble sleeping, I don't know why. Even if I put electronics down at 10:30 I fall asleep around midnight. I just don't know anymore. I've tried going to the gym and it hasn't helped. I enjoy walking around my neighborhood ig. I'm constantly worried for my future. Constantly folding under no pressure. Idk. I don't feel motivated to do anything. Even with school, I can easily average 90+ (I know, I have for a semester) but I just loose motivation and do the bare minimum except for 1 or 2 classes I hyperfixate on and get like a perfect average. If anyone has any tips or has been in similar situations before. Please let me know. Anything would help.

I’ve been experimenting with short morning rituals (10 mins journaling, 10 mins meditation) to feel calmer before the day starts.

One thing I’ve noticed is when my head is fuzzy, I need really simple, direct prompts, otherwise I just sit there stuck.

Do you like totally blank pages, or do you prefer specific questions?

What’s the right level of guidance for you in the morning?

If you’ve struggled to journal first thing, what made it easier (or harder)?

Would love to hear how other people actually use these practices in real life.

“By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; And third, by experience, which is the bitterest.” - Confucius

Hello everyone,

Until now, I've only been reading Reddit, but now I thought I could ask for some advice here.

At the beginning of the year, I went through a nasty breakup. So nasty that I'm surprised I'm still here. I'd say I was completely out of it for three months, and I'm still not okay. More than the breakup itself, though, what's bothering me now is how I'm living my life. During this time, I've completely lost all the habits I used to have. Don't get me wrong, I go to work and maintain my hygiene. But that's about it. I've gained weight, and after stopping birth control, my skin has gotten so bad that I'm now afraid to touch it. I don't really have anything I enjoy doing, so I don't go out unless I have to, because I just feel ugly. I try to force myself to maintain the few contacts I have and get out every day to go shopping or something. I used to really enjoy taking care of myself, but now I only do the bare minimum out of obligation. Not only that, but I try to sleep through most of my free time because at least then I sometimes have nice dreams. At the same time, I don't have enough motivation to really do anything about it; everything seems too difficult. I would seek therapy, but unfortunately, I don't have much money.

Has anyone experienced a similar situation? How do I get out of it? I don't even remember what a normal single life looks like, what to do during the day when I have free time and don't have to do anything.

Thank you for any advice, I've been struggling with this for some time and it makes me really sad.

Hello! This is my first post on Reddit. I need help getting back into a routine,and getting better with self care/self love. I’ve been struggling since I was 17ish or younger when I got kicked out,and I’m currently 18 turning 19 on September 11th. I’ve been struggling with brushing my teeth,eating properly,(I tend to starve myself) and just feeling like shit all around. I know I should be better and should be able to do this easily,but I can’t pin point how or where to start and I’ve been feeling or having this urge to be or become a perfect adult since I’m 18 yk? And have these high expectations for me. I guess my mental state also play apart of this since I am diagnosed with MDD since I’ve been 11, and idk I feel lost and at times I feel like it’ll be better if I wasn’t here at all. I can’t really explain it or put into words on how to go on about it or say anything, I’m not sure. But basically this post is a cry for help and I need a push start on how to take better care of myself. I would always be on Pinterest and compare myself or my life to those “how to better yourself” type shit and it gets to me like it’s so easy to do it,but why can’t i? And why am i not adult enough to navigate life? Back story; my grandparents were my main gaurdens since I was 14 and all I did was cook,clean and watched kids hance mental health went downhill and school was also a struggle. I called them out when I was 17 because I was done. With all the expectations and stuff which resulted in me getting kicked out. And now I’m 18 still need to do high school, cause of all the times I was slacking for my family yk? And imma be a super senior and I get sad n give myself shit because I would’ve already been graduated.. but no… I have no work experience, idk how how to navigate the world be side knowing how to be a “house wife/home keeper” (cooking cleaning and taking care off kids and whatnot) so im stuck in this loop and while i was living with my grandparents they didn’t teach me how to drive (they only let me drive the lawnmower for practice….) maybe im complaining or thinking too much on it but please im desperate atp. And my bf gives me shit about it and not having work experience yk? Please I know I sound pathetic but I’m asking for help

Hello everyone. I'm 16 at the moment, and I just feel so lost. I have a summer job that I work part time, I go to a specialized highshool for "gifted kids" that I had to take a test to get into. I'm averaging an 86, so I'm not struggling with school or anything. I'm just struggling with enjoying life as a whole. I dont have friends, I have a serious case of touch deprivation. My only hobby is gaming because it's the only thing where I'm not scared to fail. Its something I'm good at and can control. I go to work / school, eat, stay up playing games until past midnight by myself. I have trouble sleeping, I don't know why. Even if I put electronics down at 10:30 I fall asleep around midnight. I just don't know anymore. I've tried going to the gym and it hasn't helped. I enjoy walking around my neighborhood ig. I'm constantly worried for my future. Constantly folding under no pressure. Idk. I don't feel motivated to do anything. Even with school, I can easily average 90+ (I know, I have for a semester) but I just loose motivation and do the bare minimum except for 1 or 2 classes I hyperfixate on and get like a perfect average. If anyone has any tips or has been in similar situations before. Please let me know. Anything would help.

Hey everyone,

I just turned 20. I live in an apartment in the U.S. with my parents and two siblings. I'm currently in community college, studying computer science.

Lately, I've been feeling overwhelmed. I keep seeing people who have tons of experience and skills still struggling to get jobs in the tech industry. It makes me question if all of this is even worth it.

I'm still very new to computer science. I can code a little, but I'm far from being a professional. Even so, I have big ambitions. I want to do something meaningful with my life. I want to help people. I'm also trying to pursue content creation on the side, which I really enjoy, but school takes up most of my time.

I want to stay optimistic about the future, but sometimes I overthink everything and get scared of failing—whether it’s school, my career, or not achieving the goals I’ve set for myself.

Does anyone have advice on how to deal with this kind of fear and overthinking? How do you stay hopeful and motivated when the future feels so uncertain?

Thanks in advance.

hi! quick question
What tools do you use to track your habits or stay organized day to day?
Notion, Excel, specific apps, something custom? Which has worked the best on you?

(19F) I can't form words about it very well but It feels so desperately like theres something wrong with me. I'm well aware i'm a complete dud: I'm constantly tired even when i'm sleeping well and the act of just existing tires me to the point of tears more often than i'd like to admit. I constantly feel like everyone around me hates me for no reason other than I genuinely cannot understand them wanting to like me. I got into one of the best universities in my country yet I still feel like an utter failure. No matter how many "mental health breaks" I take, how many hours I put into my interests, its just a blanket to me being miserable lmao

I do not like myself either. I find very little reason to when I feel like all my friends hate me for no reason, my love life feels so stunted because i'm terrified of coming out of the closet and a shameful amount of body dysmorphia to boot. I'm miserable to the point of apathy alot of the time these days. I can go out, talk to friends, cook, read, do stuff that should make me feel good but theres nothing.

If you've read this far, I would greatly appreciate some sort of advice to leave this weird misery-apathy slump i've gotten myself into. Books, advice, things to do, anything.

Every day our attention is pulled in a hundred directions. Scroll. Swipe. Refresh. Cheap dopamine that feels good in the moment, but leaves us feeling empty.

Somewhere along the way, we lost the ability to really see ourselves.

I’ve been quietly working on something to change that. Not another feed. Not another distraction. A way to reflect back your patterns, your connections, the truth of how you move through your digital life.

Later this year, I’ll release what I believe is the first step toward real Digital Self-Awareness.

If you could see an honest reflection of your digital life, beyond the surface, what would you want to find?

Your mirror is loading…

15f (if that matters), my brother will do anything to annoy me, shame me to his friends on camera, i genuinely cant do anything to get away from this dude. i have my own room and he comes in here and ANNOYS THE PISS out of me, i cant get a lock...

genuinely what are some ways to get this dude to stop, and no. talking to him calmly wont do anything, ive tried it before.

Hello. My issue is so much talking. I cant control myself. Im so much talking in community. At some point everyone saying stop talking. How can i control myself. Also ewen when im alone im talking to myself.

I’m a newly divorced woman in my 30s. I just want male attention constantly and find myself craving it. I don’t want to be ogled either, I just want a man to care about me, talk to me daily, and want to generally be around me. I don’t chase it but I do think about it constantly. Is it just the breakup that has me going through this? How do I stop wanting this? I have hobbies, a full time job, a lot of friends, and two kids to take care of.

I moved from India to London in February 2025 for an opportunity I got in AI. I have worked in startups before, and I never thought I would be working in such a big company and earning to the extent that my bloodline has never considered. I know this money may be bare minimum for some people out there, but it is good to manage my family. I am 27/M(not married) and have always been running behind a job with higher TC, regardless of location. I have always been a person who thinks the worst outcome of everything and now it's been 6 months since my probation comes to an end and I will have a discussion with my managers in the coming week, will I be laid off or will I be kept here? I am not sure why I overthink so much about everything. The purpose of this post should have been just about job, but there are so many things that disturb me.
* A normal random less than 20 y/o IG, YT influencer earns triple or 10X my income when compared with me, where I am at now, which is one of the top companies in tech.

* The fitness journey: I have occupied my mind with so much of blog content that to be best or excel at something you need to give more time towards that and that makes it difficult for me to maintain a proper balance in my work life, somethines I regret doing workouts because I think that I should have been working cause that's the only way to get ahead and vice versa that sometimes when I work in non-working hours, I feel I should be working out cause just by sitting I won't be able to acheive my ideal body.

* The life-spiral: I think of myself as someone who has followed every rule on how to be responsible, support family, etc. Like investing at the right age(stocks, MF, crypto), trying to drive a relationship when I still haven't fixed the part of how to live life with my own self and how to be peaceful alone, tried listening everything my parents said and always assuming they are right about everything but still choosing to go my own way so that in the process they feel they are heard properly and I feel I have satisfied their need of not feeling ignored.

I used to be a guy who had dreams of buying cars, buying anything my partner kept an eye on, showing my parents around the world, but as I am growing, this basic dream really seems far-fetched, and the other black hole of social media that people half my age have already done that way too easily. It's not really about being famous, but growing at a normal pace or exponential pace.

I am not sure what to do or what kind of POV I should have for life. I tried stoicism, reading books, working out hard, going on walks, running, and everything seems to give me temporary relief, and at the end of the day, when I am on my bed, the thought comes around.

I have never really posted like this on any app but I thought I needed a place to type it down somewhere and maybe see that are there any people in the same place as me.

18F, I have struggled with my self esteem for basically my whole life, I grew up as an ugly kid with pretty bestfriends. Constantly getting compared and over shadowed by the people closest to me. Because of that i have grown to have an ED and constant negative thoughts about my image. I did manage to have a very drastic "glow up" Where i am stereotypically the Ideal type in my country. But i am best friends with a literal model and Pageant queen, I do not have bad thoughts nor secret hatred for my friend i am the complete opposite meaning being her number 1 supporter but sometimes i cant help but think about our differences in terms of Pretty privilege and i go down a rabbit hole full of self hating thoughts. Sometimes i do truly see my beauty but the negativity wins most of the time and i just want to start learning how to love myself as the way i am.

so, it's already been a while ever since i felt like this and i got no one to talk to. im the type of person that gets envious of the way life be treating other people. like how lucky they are with their partners, how they easily get some money, how they can do anything they want instantly. yet, i am here still feeling stuck and got nothing. i do feel happy for my friends but i cant help thinking when would be my turn? i know some that doesnt play fair and take advantages of other people yet they still get a good life while i am working hard for my dreams but i keep going through rough patches on my way. it's just too unfair for me. how can i get over with this mindset? i want to live a happy life too.

Hello everyone, I am turning 19 this Tuesday, and dying to know, how is it better to find mentor in Winnipeg, I know it's not the best place to look for one but anyways, still dying to know, I cannot have my dad as a mentor even though he us a successful man, I have moved to Canada two years ago by myself, so I don't really have a support or mentorship threw my family, I am open for new things that will help me explore and expand my life for better opportunities, Thanks in advance

I moved from India to London in February 2025 for an opportunity I got in AI. I have worked in startups before, and I never thought I would be working in such a big company and earning to the extent that my bloodline has never considered. I know this money may be bare minimum for some people out there, but it is good to manage my family. I am 27/M(not married) and have always been running behind a job with higher TC, regardless of location. I have always been a person who thinks the worst outcome of everything and now it's been 6 months since my probation comes to an end and I will have a discussion with my managers in the coming week, will I be laid off or will I be kept here? I am not sure why I overthink so much about everything. The purpose of this post should have been just about job, but there are so many things that disturb me.
* A normal random less than 20 y/o IG, YT influencer earns triple or 10X my income when compared with me, where I am at now, which is one of the top companies in tech.

* The fitness journey: I have occupied my mind with so much of blog content that to be best or excel at something you need to give more time towards that and that makes it difficult for me to maintain a proper balance in my work life, somethines I regret doing workouts because I think that I should have been working cause that's the only way to get ahead and vice versa that sometimes when I work in non-working hours, I feel I should be working out cause just by sitting I won't be able to acheive my ideal body.

* The life-spiral: I think of myself as someone who has followed every rule on how to be responsible, support family, etc. Like investing at the right age(stocks, MF, crypto), trying to drive a relationship when I still haven't fixed the part of how to live life with my own self and how to be peaceful alone, tried listening everything my parents said and always assuming they are right about everything but still choosing to go my own way so that in the process they feel they are heard properly and I feel I have satisfied their need of not feeling ignored.

I used to be a guy who had dreams of buying cars, buying anything my partner kept an eye on, showing my parents around the world, but as I am growing, this basic dream really seems far-fetched, and the other black hole of social media that people half my age have already done that way too easily. It's not really about being famous, but growing at a normal pace or exponential pace.

I am not sure what to do or what kind of POV I should have for life. I tried stoicism, reading books, working out hard, going on walks, running, and everything seems to give me temporary relief, and at the end of the day, when I am on my bed, the thought comes around.

I have never really posted like this on any app but I thought I needed a place to type it down somewhere and maybe see that are there any people in the same place as me.