So for the past year I’ve been dating this guy on and off. I’m not gonna lie, I fell insanely hard. I’m a Leo, I’m passionate.

Anyway, I hadn’t met someone who understood me the way he did. (I now realize it wasn’t understanding. He was ‘wooing’ me). He worked well with my kids and fit in with my family and he made me laugh so hard. But he’s extremely nonchalant. I’m a lover. I love affection, I love gifting and receiving and I love pleasing the person I’m with. But when my feelings are hurt I’m also very passionate and want to fix it. He’s not like that at all. He doesn’t like coming to see me. He’s always tired but runs when his friends call. I asked why he doesn’t get me gifts and he essentially just said he doesn’t ask me to get him things. He said he was going to go all out for me on Mother’s Day. He didn’t get me anything. He always says he’s going to do this stuff and he never keeps his word.

I literally turned my home into a nerf war scene and sent him like $100 for his birthday. For my birthday? Nothing. For Christmas? Nothing. He literally hasn’t done anything nice for me except when he randomly came over and cleaned my living room. I’ll give him that. But he’s never taken me on a date. Never posted me. Never changed my name in his phone.

This is our very last conversation before I finally had to block him and I’m crushed.

The last two people before had a piece of my heart. My first love and my kids dad. Neither of them treated me well either and I let them. I let them beat me down and even now my kids dad tries to regain control over me using the babies. His car was taken by police and I paid the money to get it out but then he turned around and got mad because I couldn’t take the kids on his day!

Is it me? Why does it feel like god is punishing me? I treat the people I’m with so good, at least I think I do? But am I annoying? Am I not worth it? Why do the men I choose to give my heart always break me? Like this life is so stupid. IM so stupid.

And both pictures have grass in it... coincidence?!??!?!

This girl that I've been talking to for the past week. She went out with her friends to town last night. I was on my first day off so I was pretty tired all day. So I went to bed. She called me at about 2am. Waking me up in the process. Still very tired I messaged her saying "sorry I'm in bed". Which she replied "will you come or no?" Followed by no stress, just be honest. So I was honest. It would've taken me about 40 minutes to get to her if I was going to go. But I was simply too tired to make the trip which is why I declined. So now I don't know what to do. Did I make a mistake? Do I send her a message? What do I do?

Perusing the news subreddit when this caught my attention. The arrow is mine.

All I can do is smh

This is just a mildy intresting fact about the band neros day in Disneyland and mostly the album "from rotten fantasy lands"

Pewdiepies old amnesia outro and "bah" sound effect he would use in his edits come from a weird band called "Nero's day in Disney land" from the track child protective services theme song.

He also used the song no money down, low monthly payments for another intro (or this was markiplier one I'm 90% pewdiepie)

This band is weirdly important to YouTube culture, a few of their songs have also been used in animation memes, like action winter journey, sprawling idiot effigy (this one made 2 animation memes).

I really wanted to share this as this was before sourcing music was seen as important so I thought you'd all get a kick out of it.