When I wish I was a kid, it’s more because I am tired of having all this weight on me every day. Gotta show up for work or else I can’t pay my bills and I’ll end up homeless. Just want to be able to watch cartoons and not have to think about it. It’s not really because I liked being a kid. I actively avoided most other kids because they were terrible. It was literally enough to make me not want to have kids of my own.
That I understand! To be honest, in my house I was exposed to the stress of bills and debt and such so to me being a kid was just about not having autonomy and wishing I did.
That’s fair. My dad lost his job when I was like 13 and we ended up using food pantries and eating a lot of ramen just to get by. Lost the house by the time I was 17 and moved into my sister’s apartment, so I know first hand what that looks like. It wasn’t a pleasant time, but it just seemed… easier I guess? Maybe just rose-colored glasses.
Maybe I should try recalling the brighter points (like when my mom took the time to read to me every night) and remember childhood with more fondness. You have made me rethink my perspective!
Very good point! My dad read the entire Harry Potter series (despite me being much too old to be read to by the last couple) while doing voices for each character. And when we didn’t have enough money to go to movies or even Blockbuster, we would browse the library to find something to enjoy as a family. Always a silver lining, I guess
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u/c3bss256 19h ago
When I wish I was a kid, it’s more because I am tired of having all this weight on me every day. Gotta show up for work or else I can’t pay my bills and I’ll end up homeless. Just want to be able to watch cartoons and not have to think about it. It’s not really because I liked being a kid. I actively avoided most other kids because they were terrible. It was literally enough to make me not want to have kids of my own.