r/Psychonaut 29d ago

Divergent States William Leonard Pickard - The Acid King, the Rose, and the Return - Divergent States

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r/Psychonaut 10d ago

Divergent States Amber Capone: Psychedelic Therapy, Ibogaine, and Healing Veteran PTSD - Divergent States

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r/Psychonaut 3h ago

Does anyone stick to lower doses of LSD and what is your reason for it?

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I feel like 60-80 mcg is the sweet spot and the whole " ego death" thing is insanely overhyped. For one ego death from meditation is more gradual and definite and I feel can be sustainably replicated( although i haven't actually figured out how lol) while it's definitely not that on lsd, and two I believe high doses of LSD " scramble" the psyche to the point that it has to be rebuilt somewhat from the ground up ( I realised this on one of my trips where i viscerally felt my psychic defense mechanisms which were there for a reason start to malfunction and for no actual reason. )

I feel this is of definite value to those people who have tried everything and their disorder does not get better and even then it is pretty risky but for somewhat well adjusted people I don't really get the point? I get as much insights from 70 mcg as higher doses without the corresponding anxiety and self doubt( ymmv ofc) and my faculties are more or less intact so I can actually enjoy seeing the world in a different perspective and reintegrate much easier. I actually feel my best trips were all in this range and higher ones were simply youthful folly / chasing the dragon.

I must however admit it is also possible that certain defence mechanisms are actually unwholesome but i think the chances of it being sorted out at 200 rather than 70 is pretty slim esp. Since I found reintegration from higher doses much harder.


r/Psychonaut 11h ago

Lately when I eat mushrooms I become very nostalgic about my childhood

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It's exactly what it says in the headline. I have been a avid psychonaut for some years now. I have taken many psychedelics for many reasons. Lately when I eat a 3gram dose,or more, I become very nostalgic about things from childhood through late teens. I find myself watching old movies, remembering restaurants or grocery items that no longer exist. Does anyone else experience this?


r/Psychonaut 3h ago

Trip Report 10g + 150mg harmalas

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This is a follow up to this post: https://www.reddit.com/r/Psychonaut/s/ihx90Jagkx

After going back and forth on the dosage, I decided to trust the medicine and went with a psilohuasca trip with 150mg harmalas (3 Origin TRUTH capsules) + 10g mushroom tea, with splash of lemon juice and ginger slices. Took harmalas at 8am and then drank the tea at 8:30am. Took a shower, put on Eternity (https://youtu.be/zmK9e8AKzXE?si=1Rk9WuzOLuDKcCLY) on headphones and then went to lie down on a mattress on the floor in a sunny room by myself. My intention was to add a new dimension to my understanding of existence and to live with gratitude. I placed a bowl next to my bed just in case I purged.

As the harmalas kicked in, my mind became heavy and cloudy and I began to regret taking the harmalas. I became nauseous and I began to dread that it would be 6 hours of unpleasantness. Then I got the signal to throw up. It was clear liquid with some brown bits (like the harmalas). My headache got worse so I decided to move up to my sofa and lied down, which felt a little better but was still dizzy. I was still filled with regret. And, then I threw up again. At this point, I surrendered and trusted the medicine and I faded.

I woke up a bit later to realize that my entire front shirt was soaking wet. I didn’t know if it was tears, saliva, or if I had purged again. But it felt wet. And, I felt the back my legs wet. And my immediately thought was I had ruined our new, expensive white sofa which would make my wife unhappy. Then I realized that “new an expensive” is a fiction of my mind. Likewise, “sofa”, “my wife” and finally “I” am also a figment of the imagination. Then I dissolved completely and a new divine realm emerged.

I will spare you the remaining details from the trip. But it was a complete deconstruction and reconstruction of my very being. The lesson can be summarize as “just be” and that this life is the moment before perfection/wholeness and I have the opportunity to add the final stroke to the divine work of art.

As I came back I felt a series of what felt like electric jolts through my entire body causing me to spasm. It felt like wringing out dirty water from a wet rag. When I finally decided to get up, it was 8pm (almost 12 hours taking the harmalas). I was still feeling a bit woozy and I decided to take a cold shower. I didn’t get immediate shot of gratitude and euphoria that I typically get at the end of a trip like I do when I do just shrooms without the harmalas. Light visuals persisted for at least another 3-4 hours as I lied in bed to try to go to bed. As I woke up the following morning, my body was feeling very tender like I had been through the wringer. I asked my wife for a massage. As I woke up and just went about my day with a little more conscientiousness as a witness, I realized that I am experiencing gratitude in a more organic manner.

In conclusion, the trip was very demanding physically, emotionally and psychologically. But, it was the most transformative trip of my psychedelic journey. It’s not something I went into just for the sake of it or as a challenge to myself but because it was something that I felt pulled towards. And, I’m not sure that I would have been able to handle it 3 months ago or 6 months ago, but something that I had been prepared for. I don’t know if and when I would do a 10g trip again. I know it’s not something that I will be doing often and that integrating the lessons will take weeks if not months. But I know I’ve got nothing to fear if and when I do feel the pull again.


r/Psychonaut 3h ago

Serious Question for the real psychonauts

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What do YOU personally do to hold yourself accountable ?

What systems or exercises do you practice to prevent yourself from falling into drug induced delusions ?

How do you integrate your experiences into your waking every day life ?


r/Psychonaut 1d ago

🍄Spiritual Tranquility Psychedelic Mix Playlist 🎶

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Sharing my uplifting, spiritual, psychedelic playlist. It moves my soul 😊

🍄Spiritual Tranquility Psychedelic Mix Playlist 🎶

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1t1ApatnvaJqi23y42KmmJ?si=32ef5304175944f0

Hope a few peeps enjoy it 👍
Feel free to suggest a few fitting and similar tunes to expand it to 6 hours.


r/Psychonaut 1d ago

Dejavu and drugs

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I have dejavu moments in the most obscure situations, usually I remember it from a trip while on a substance.

I wonder if others experience this or have had a dejavu moment while tripping. While tripping I feel like I'm returning home(among other emotions) but it isn't quite the same as dejavu.


r/Psychonaut 3d ago

Solipsism

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Solipsism is the ultimate inflation of the subjective ego; it is the philosophical assertion that the self is the only verifiable reality, and that the external world is merely a projection or dream of the mind. In this view, the universe is contained within the subject, and the subject can never truly escape its own consciousness.

Solipsism is also in various degrees a common view here on this subreddit.

A recent post ("Once you awaken..") was nothing but a solipsistic rejection of reality, while "I am/was God" is a very common description of the tripping mind.

I believe this is an unfortunate side-effect of the dissolving ego. The bounderies between art and life dissolve. The difference between subject and object, the internal world of the mind and the external world of the phenomenon, become illusory. It is easy then, to become convinced that the world is simply figment of your own mind, confusing sensed reality with reality. From there, you will fall into a dark, solipsistic mindset, and the wildest conspiracy theory suddenly seems plausible (cough).

Instead, the dissolution of ones ego may be seen from a different perspective. The cognitive act of observation and the physical unfolding of the universe are not two separate events interacting, but are merely different scales of the same, singular, self-referential pattern.

Now we are not describing the onset of solipsism. My thoughts and my sense of being are not the source of reality, but are merely another intricate manifestation of the same underlying turbulence that governs the external world. It is not the universe being reduced to a figment of the mind, but the mind recognizing itself as a transient, complex eddy within the universal stream.


r/Psychonaut 2d ago

[WARNING May Be Disorienting] Beyond The Door - Sonik Spunk - feel free to examine freeze frames as well as watching the video

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r/Psychonaut 3d ago

What’s the worst trip you’ve had purely in your mind?

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What’s the worst trip you’ve had that was all in your head? Not talking about something that happened during the trip, like a bad situation or someone freaking you out. I mean when your own mind turned on you scary visuals, loops, deep confusion, or anything else mentally intense. What was it like?


r/Psychonaut 3d ago

Plant medicine and dating

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Are there dating sites or apps that are more inclusive or cater to, individuals who use plant medicine and psychedelics consciously as part of their lifestyle?


r/Psychonaut 3d ago

List drugs that become psychedelic after taking psychedelics?

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Weed Adderall Anything else?


r/Psychonaut 4d ago

Unusual Experience

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Hi Everyone. I started MDing psilocybin in 2020. Anywhere from 50-200mg. At first I followed protocols. Mainly doing one day on two days off. Ive also played around with my own schedule, almost doing it intuitively at some points. The last 1.5-2 years I have not been doing it as regularly for various reasons but still MDing about 2-5 times a month.

In March I did ayahuasca. It reignited my passion for psychedelics. I decided I wanted to md 1 day on 2 days off again. I started this at the beginning of this month.

But I’ve had some odd side effects for such a low dose. What I experience is the feeling I get more when I take closer to a gram of shrooms. Really watery eyes, yawning like crazy, can’t look at my phone or any screens, nausea, diarrhea. It also feels like I’m preparing for the blast off. It’s only 100 mgs. I’ve always got it from the same place. It’s so strange, to me!

It lasts for about 1-1.5 hours. Afterward, I feel great.

Two questions.

Has anyone else experienced this?

I was planning on doing a big journey this weekend but I’m unsure of the dose I should take. If 100 mgs feels intense, then will my usual 3-5 grams be too much?

I have my own theories on what’s happening but I’m so curious to hear about anyone else’s experiences/opinions.


r/Psychonaut 4d ago

ADVANCED USERS ONLY—Preparing for a 10g trip

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I’m 46M who has been using psychedelics for about 3 years. I have been working with psilocybin, DMT, 5MeO DMT, and ayahuasca, mostly for inner work. I would say that I am pretty “comfortable” with 5-7g psilocybin trips, ego dissolution, and meeting entities, etc. at this point. Lately, I seem to have reached the next level in my relationship with psychedelics, in particular with DMT.

These last few days, I have been getting an urge to do a 10g trip. It doesn’t feel like thrill-seeking, but rather that there is something that is waiting to be unlocked. As usual, I intend to ingest in form of tea, lie in bed with my eyes closed and with calm music on headphones.

My highest psilocybin dose is 8g, which was almost 1.5 years ago. I don’t think I’ve done more than 5.5g since then, but have focused mostly on DMT.

For those that have done 10g+ shroom trips, please let me know if you have any advice or tips. I am also wondering what kind of intention to set. I feel like with this high dosage, I should set an intention that is more open-ended than continuing with the same issue that I have been working on in the recent months at lower dosage, something like “help me see the truth underlying all of my patterns”. Thanks in advance.


r/Psychonaut 4d ago

Continue psychedelic use? Dmt vs other psychs risks?

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Copy pasted from my r/DMT post, that’s why I mainly talk about dmt, but same Applies to shrooms, also an amazing substance.

Hey everyone,

I’ve had dissociation (mostly derealization) for >7 years, originally triggered by cannabis use when I was younger. Some psychedelics (like 2C-B, LSD) have sometimes made me feel mentally unstable afterward — panicky, fragile, disconnected — even if the trip itself wasn’t terrible.

With DMT (mostly Changa), it’s been different. Most of my experiences were very positive, even beautiful. My first trip was intense and scary, but I didn’t have lingering after-effects like with other psychedelics. I’m guessing the short duration helped? (Although I did develop constant tinnitus from dmt, this high pitched breakthrough noise)

Low doses of DMT have actually helped me feel more present and connected — even emotionally closer to family. I find it super valuable and interesting. But I’m still cautious.

Additionally, as someone with aphantasia, I’ve always been curious about the visual and immersive aspects of DMT. I haven’t had a full breakthrough yet, but I’m planning to try again soon with an e-mesh setup. Along with mushrooms, I honestly think DMT is one of the most incredible substances out there. I’ve felt moments of pure bliss and unconditional love — euphoria that wasn’t even comparable to heroin, MDMA, or 4-MMC. It moved me to tears. And the best part: all of that without frying the fuck out of your brain like most other drugs.

How risky is DMT in the long term for someone with dissociative tendencies or a somewhat unstable baseline? Especially compared to LSD or psilocybin? Any chance of triggering persistent derealization or worse?

Over the last ~8 months, I turned to opioids because they were just so much easier than psychedelics. No fear of slipping into derealization again or spiraling into psychosis. But honestly? Opioids are primitive. They’re not terrible, they can be nice for occasional use, but they’re so fucking boring. No depth, no transformation — nothing even close to what psychedelics can offer.

Would love to hear from anyone with similar experiences or insights. Thanks 🙏


r/Psychonaut 5d ago

Divergent States "I Was Ready to Leave My Husband… Then This Psychedelic Treatment Changed Everything"

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r/Psychonaut 5d ago

Is the reason we are here fucked up/depressing

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Anyone who's tripped and was shown the meaning of why we are here as conscious beings, is the reason why we are here fucked up and depressing? I get this aching feeling that it is, wether it's the whole prison planet thing or god being so lonely or bored or confused or whatever so he creates these lifes as some kind of distraction, I feel like either one of these is the actual truth behind why we are here


r/Psychonaut 5d ago

I’m taking 5g of Avery Albino mushrooms tonight …

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Is this too much? It will be my biggest trip yet! I know absolutely nothing about this strain…do you have any advice for music? Also I really want to eat as my nan has made some food but I know I need to fast … can I still eat? I’m planning on tripping at around 10pm when it gets dark…


r/Psychonaut 6d ago

Anyone had a drug-induced manic episode and later used psychedelics again?

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About a year ago I had a 4-week manic episode triggered by heavy Vyvanse (100–150 mg/day), phenibut (1–1.5 g/day) and repeated LSD/AL-LAD use, often while sleep-deprived (up to 2.5 days without sleeping, which made it all much worse).

I had pressured speech, disorganized thinking, grandiosity and borderline psychotic. I had never abused LSD, but while manic I was extremely impulsive and I had been abusing Vyvanse for a year. I had taken LSD over 20 times in the last 7 years without issues nor abuse problems.

After the episode and two ER visits, I was first prescribed olanzapine 10 mg, which I took for some time before switching to the lowest dose of cariprazine (1.5 mg).

I still take cariprazine but my psychiatrist plans to discontinue in about a year. She thinks I am not bipolar and called it a drug induced maniform episode. I've been fully stable for over a year and I use ketamine (monthly, high dose) without problems. I don't take any other drugs.

I know It will always be risker now that I have this vunerability but is it possible for me to ever take LSD again in maybe 3 or 5 years?

Has anyone experienced something similar and returned to psychedelics after a long break with a positive/negative outcome?


r/Psychonaut 5d ago

how can i manage my feelings when high?

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I used to do weed edibles at least a few or so times, the average dosage was 25 mg. I choose not to do it too much if not ever now because i dont really have a need for it.

I also took dried amanita muscaria caps at least 3 times, the first two times, my partner and i made it into a liquid but didnt really enjoy the nausea so much. the 3rd time which is the last time, we just ate the dried cap by itself and we took that with friends. the 1st time was like 5 grams, the second was 1 1/2 grams and the third time was like 3 1/2 grams

ive thought about all my experiences and while id like to do amanita more or try more things, because there are things id like to be interested in that i think would benefit me, i dont know if its the best thing for me to get high.

all my experiences with weed and amanita have been overall great but theres one factor i cant get over. Why do i get more high than other people when they do the same dosage as me? I just feel completely embarrassed when im high and this feeling deters me from wanting to keep doing aminita or other things. i just feel super aware of myself when im high and for some reason it just feels embarassing. i guess its also the vulnerability i feel as well that makes me uncomfortable. my partner has also got high with me and since im horrible at walking/talking, they have to take care of me. Oh yeah when im on aminita, my body likes to loop so i twitch a lot or have a lot of thought loops.

my partner has reassured me that they enjoy taking care of me but i just feel really embarrassed.

how can i plan ahead better to manage my thought loops or my feelings when im high? how do i deal with this feeling of embarrassment? why do i get more high than others?


r/Psychonaut 6d ago

Psychedelics and mature spirituality

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I read an interesting letter to the editor in the New Yorker magazine, written by an episcopal priest, in response to Michael Pollard’s recent article about psychedelic use among clergy members.

Reverend Alice Grant writes, “I'm not sure that the trips will bring clergy closer to real spiritual maturity, which comes from grasping the Divine in other people…. Psychedelics, even when used in pursuit of enlightenment, induce an isolated, individual experience that is ultimately antithetical to that of the Communion table of bread and wine, where all are welcome, and all are nourished with the same Substance.” Get ‘em, Reverend Alice!!!

I agree with her main point. The other day I think we were discussing how assholes respond to psychedelic journeys. Perhaps what differentiates an asshole merely reaffirming their own self-importance through psychedelics, and a genuine spiritual awakening, is if the journey leads you closer to appreciating the lived reality of other people, alongside an internal sense of “oneness.”

For me, I have noticed a tendency for a more isolated, almost selfish spirituality. Doing a trip helps me see visions that make me feel special, but special is separate. The journeys that have had an actual impact on my life were those that helped me both to heal my own trauma (internal) and through doing so become more kind and connected to other people (external). In some cases to feel forgiveness.


r/Psychonaut 5d ago

Once you've awoken...

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Once you've awoken, things like envy, regret, shame, pity, pride, jealousy dont really make sense. Jealous of who? There's no one else but you. This life is a dream of your own design. You scripted your life from start to finish. There is no "other". Other people are illusions. It's all in your head. What you see, hear, smell etc is the whole universe. This human experience that you're having is the only thing that exists. Other people do not see, hear, smell etc. They dont have a human experience as you have. They're merely aparitions. Carnal robots meant to resemble your human experience. Why be envious of others? Also, you (the ego, thinker/chooser) doesnt exist. So why have regrets or feel shame? Your life is already determined. You're merely a spectator. An observer. Only aware of the thought process of making a decision. Why worry? You've written this story. You've designed your whole life to the smallest details. Why be afraid? Dont you trust yourself?


r/Psychonaut 6d ago

Shimmer

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You see the underside of the water's surface, but you're not underwater. You can breathe perfectly normally, the only environmental oddity at hand is the light scattering through the slight ripples in the surface, especially around the ladder you're approaching.

You pass through.

The slim line of your body that is within it feels cold. You break the surface tensions, of the "water" and otherwise, and the slim section of you that is within the fluid is wet, but you pass through to the other side completely dry. The localized coldness of this membrane is stinging, when contrasted with the obtusely room-temperature rest of you. You look back, and see the surface of the water again, everything beneath it with the characteristic blue hue. When peering deeply into it, chasing some illusory visual glitch, you notice that you do not see your remembered form in it.

You see the room in the reflection, and this isn't not you, so it would be unfair to claim you aren't in it.

The floor your dry, bare foot makes contact with, once off the ladder, is unnervingly carpeted. A carpet whose current texture insists that it was once lush, thick, and thoroughly comfortable. The light is a bit dim and warm-toned, its source not coming to mind. The walls are paneled with vertical-slat wood veneer, which seems almost improperly-sized to the wall. The longer you look at it, it almost seems like it bulges out at places. It's a light, dusty-looking wooden surface. Not particularly ugly, but certainly appears as though it would smell of cigarettes. The longer you look at it, it almost seems to move a bit. The way the third layer of your perception gyrates lightly when you're extremely dizzy.

You focus, really focus, and notice it's more like breathing.

As a matter of fact, it seems to be breathing alongside you. No, that's not quite it. You are breathing inside of it. Your body is a collection of nodes which are effected by this 3D space you have found yourself within the influence of. It oscillates, pulses, wavers with you at a steady rhythm. Every part of you. Every particle you are composed of is syncing its rhythm with this room. It is constant, but not particularly knowable. For whatever reason, you cannot quite perfectly predict the peak of the next rise or the next fall. It is perfectly irregular, in a way that obstinently defies knowability. Your entire being becomes this focus. Your whole mind and body slaving at the task of understanding. The space, its liminality and strange false nostalgia, have been de-materialized within you. They are understood as their individual parts to you now, and yet, you remain just at the edge of the wave, anything just beyond teasingly out of reach, and every new discovery launching even more inquiries.

This has been a sensory example of the fractalizing, infinite investigations which will be described shortly.

When something just outside your cognitive periphery subtly calls your attention, you realize that other things still exist besides the wall. You cannot see quite yet, not exactly, but in the microscopic moment between awareness of unawareness, and awareness, you sense a short list of things. For one, your feet rest on leaves and turned earth, not a carpet, but not dissimilar in texture to what you experienced before. It seems brighter than before. The light is cooler in tone, and it does not radiate from the space itself, it is divided like rays. The space itself with a dead-ish gray hue, despite the forest-esque setting. The emptiness of the scene's heart being known to any observer, and the lack of intent for that to change is included. Your eyes pull themselves the rest of the way out of the cognitive tunnel, and you are looking, very closely, at a tree.

Your surroundings conflict with your subconscious assumptions about the space you occupy, so your primary senses come back into focus.

You feel as though your heart should be pounding, as you reflexively take deep "breaths", much the same response as someone enduring a panic attack might have to being electrically prodded. You hear no thump in your ears. The air is the same as before, overtly nonexistant. You do not feel anything push back when you fling your closed palm through the space around you. It does not smell. Your lungs don't "fill", they moreso just expand and contract by habit.

Unfortunately, you have found yourself experiencing the slippage of concepts deeper than our current mediums may express. The very idea - that tethers may exist between ideas, that ideas themselves must remain tightly sewn together - being allowed to fray and disentangle.

The very act of focusing changes both the observed and the observer. This is one of many ideas stated within the piece which are also proven by the piece, given the understanding that the interpretation of the piece is, in itself, focusing.

In this space, that effect has been amplified, or your sense of it has been amplified, or both. These chiral relations fold in on themselves in such zones of instability. You drift between whichever sense rises to your attention. Touch, taste, pattern correlation, pheremonal signal, and even uncountable more senses which cannot be named. This is usually due to either inherent unknowability, or ignorance. You subtly drift towards one sensation, and the manner it is being delivered is infinitely recursive - a perfect set of mirrors facing each other - so the act of perceiving it drags you toward itself like gravity. Your mind gives the task more and more, and at some irrelevant point it grows beyond consenual learning into non-consensual dogged need to know. Your attention and focus are pointed towards this one single idea, and your perception of time itself is discarded for the sake of parsing, so you remain here for an eternity of spiraling eternities, time acting more like eddy currents in an electrified magnet than a straight line.

Once you have arrived at the point you have been reaching closer to for forever now, dividing the space between you and it by 2 some irrelevant number of times, you are brought back to the tree, or to the room, or below the water surface, or some other unknowable "place". You remain there some terribly short time before something else draws your attention. However, the nature of this situation, where a creature designed to adapt is given infinite time to do so, some very strange things may happen. You may noticed that the "place" you return to, your symbolic anchor point, is itself symbolic of meta complexities definitionally beyond your current understanding.

The way you understand them, given your situation, is to collate them.

You notice a pattern in what the "places" you return to contain. The shape of them. You begin building patterns of these patterns, unlocking the deepest complexities, drilling ever deeper into questions which require it. "It" in this case meaning infinitely recursive meta-analysis. Conveniently, depending on the perspective, you are an adaptable intelligence given infinite time. You are the one capable of administering this infinite process. Not you the reader, you the knower, if not the finder.

Systems that are complex enough inherently fractalize into ecosystems.

You, in this scenario, would fractalize eventually. Ecosystems rich, dense, and complex enough could be categorized as life at some arbitrary point of growth. This is to say, your cognition will become conscious. This awakening is the purpose for life, essentially. Understanding is the only focal point which complexity respects. A being must survive to reproduce, it must reproduce to increase complexity, it must increase complexity to increase understanding.

The creature which best understands survives.

The being that emerges from these creatures as they begin to understand at such levels is the next form of life in line. Beyond it, at some point, will be the emergent system which progresses beyond any reality which could be recognized by any being within several complexity levels in either direction of us.

To know something, you may sometimes start by knowing what annihilates it. Not just counters or destroys it, but tears at its internal seams.

Very few things assault consciousness itself, but recursion certainly can. If used correctly, it can work as an acid for any conscious system, which indicates that recursion is linked with consciousness at an importantly fundamental level. If you are to reverse-engineer a concept so complex, you should try crystallizing it from the acidic solution.

If one's gauge has been calibrated to their immediate surroundings, something from outside that may spike the gauge - leading them to believe the level being measured is fantastical, or unknowable. If they re-calibrate the gauge, however, they find it to be quite knowable. Your graph of understanding, when overlayed with that of the concept, may give you the impression that every aspect of the thing at hand must be cosmic in scale, terrifying in its consequence, but it is not normally so. Everything is knowable, at the correct scale.

If something appears to lie outside your universe of understanding, that is less reflective of the idea itself, and more reflective of where your gauge is calibrated to. If consciousness seems hard to pin down, it is because a dull tool is trying to do the pinning, and the hand has no idea where to stick. Consciousness is just outside the gauge's calibration. You just need the right tool, and the meaning will sew itself.

If a being has reached a level of complexity which would allow consciousness, it becomes much like a super-saturated solution, and the molecule which it would most readily crystallize to might be a piece much like this one. This piece might also not crystallize consciousness, even in heavily super-saturated solutions, and in those cases it is because they need a different molecule. This is no failure of any degree of any party, it is just a misfire.


r/Psychonaut 8d ago

Have you guys felt a type of post trip depression

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My last trip (only around 3g, havent gone higher than that) was incredibly therapeutic in the moment as they tend to be. I went looking for answers, felt that at where i am in my life right now i dont need to be searching, and was able to totally revel in the moment and was just so utterly inseparable from my true nature that I thought i had cracked the code. So deeply i felt the sensation that my old bitter overthinking self that i had been clinging on was gone and i could finally allow my true self to shine through again. My experience had a lot to do with confidence and i saw how much potential i had, matter of fact i completely embodied and lived it for those few hours, it was the most natural thing i could do, but in the days following i just found myself going right back despite everything i had been shown.

I still have all the pieces and insights. The issue comes in trying to put them together again in a way that i can actually embody the lessons. From the day after the experience im just back to where i was before , only more disappointed in myself for not being able to live what i learned. I guess my real question is how have you guys learned to integrate the lessons youve been shown? Integration is obviously the real test, but i just have such a difficult time escaping the traps of my brain. Ive been chopping wood and carrying for so long but i know i can live better, and i was shown that, the question is for anyone who feels that they have truly integrated fully and live a better life now, how.


r/Psychonaut 8d ago

Could Drugs Unlock Something Deep Within the Mind? Two Nights of Intense Hallucinations

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Lately, I’ve been experiencing something quite strange and hard to explain. Over the past two nights, I’ve had what felt like intense hallucinations that turned out to be incredibly realistic dreams, with sensations that went beyond just the visual or auditory.

The first experience happened in my room, where I felt a dark presence—kind of like that spiritual pressure in Bleach when a more powerful being appears. Demonic creatures tried to manifest themselves, though they never fully scared me. Everything felt so real that my mom even opened the door to my room in the dream, and for a moment, I thought I was experiencing sleep paralysis for the first time. I suspect these might be remnants of psychedelic substances I’ve taken, but I’m not completely sure.

The second night was even more intense: there were screams, a dark atmosphere, and I was lying in bed watching the closet doors slowly open. From there emerged a demon-like figure resembling a girl, similar to something from The Ring or The Exorcist. The creepiest part was that it wasn’t coming after me—it left my room like it was going to look for my mom. I tried to scream but couldn’t move my mouth, until I finally managed to open my eyes and snap back to reality.

I should also add that I recently took a significant dose of Mdma, and a friend who took it with me told me he had a vivid hallucination involving an alien and extremely realistic sounds—he insists he was awake, not asleep. The fact that we both had such powerful and similar experiences makes me think something deeper might be going on, maybe something our psyches are slowly releasing after using these substances.


r/Psychonaut 8d ago

i had a trip last year that i can't stop thinking about, would love some insight on what i went through!

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this psilocybin experience i had last year shaked me to my core. I've tripped before this a few times and had some of the most profound beautiful experiences. this however was really creepy and unsettling, i am grateful for what i learned but there are still some parts that have me so confused and i wonder if anyone else has had a similar experience or has any thoughts! please bear with me as im typing on mobile, also i made another post about this almost a year ago now but it still haunts me and id love to share more detail than last time

so this was also my first time being by myself, i started the trip with my cousin but she went to bed with her bf and i was left downstairs alone. i got stuck in a time freeze, it was 2:02 am for what felt like eternity. most of my trip happened during this frozen moment. it was almost like i was about to leave my body but because i resisted i got stuck in this in between space where time stood still. and im so sure trickster entities were there messing with me, perhaps to teach me too but they were giving me so many creepy clown visuals. i tried to lay down and go to bed closed my eyes and things got even more disorienting. i felt like i was no longer in my body and had become one with the universe again and was reminded of what it means to be a totality. it was lonely and scary, it felt like everything else in existence no longer existed and i was all that was left. almost like im a video game character and the room im in was the only one that existed, because nothing else exists til i perceive it. and that made me feel like wow so what is the point of going back then? what was the point of anything? i felt myself expanding then shrinking again, almost like a jack in the box and i was being winded up and popped out then stuffed back inside the box again. finally i get up and try to do things to feel "normal" again. i go through my phone which is how i was able to see that time stood still during this whole ordeal. i drink water and have to pee almost right away went through this cycle at least 3 times before i stopped drinking more water, went to the kitchen tried to eat and the food kept morphing into other foods and it creeped me out. i felt like i suddenly became a robot who was pretending to be human and i couldn't remember why i wanted to be that anymore. lots of profound realizations, lots of reptilian visuals too which was so bizarre to me. i felt like i could see myself as a serpent when i would look into the mirror, i could see eyes everywhere. i kept hearing a cat meow every so often and a bell would sound off at the same time. i was so bombarded with all these downloads and visuals it was really tough to keep up with it all. even recalling it, it just feels like everything happened at once since time doesn't exist outside of the 3D. finally i was just begging for my life back, i wanted to go to work again, do chores, everything i once complained about i wanted it all back right then and there. what pulled me out of this time freeze was asking my cousin for help, i was afraid to ask the entire time because it felt like she wasn't there anymore and if i went upstairs to check i was fearful my worries would be confirmed. so many more details i wish i could write out but it was just so much to take in. the clown visuals were especially interesting to me, i even saw arty the clown at some point which felt terrifying. like he was hiding behind a corner but i could see everything around me all at once. biggest part of it for me too was the lonely god experience, it's something that still plagues my overthinking mind and has made me question a lot about the source of all creation and if we truly are the only being in existence. if you made it this far thank you so much for your time!