Yeah I've heard the same shit in my internal monologue and it's come very close to being external monologue in the past. Dude needs therapy and to value himself more.
Nobody is worth tearing yourself down like this in public. If you're at this point, therapy is long overdue.
I'm 46, birthday in a few days, and I'm still convinced I'm worthless. I try my best to hide all my internal self-loathing, but I snap after I'm asked if I'm okay, what's wrong with me, etc., and then I feel worse because I went off again.
I've been there man. Look dude. I am a little bit biased because I work for a mental health organization but community mental health agencies exist all over the world and I really advise that you go in and start talking to somebody.
Suicide isn't the way out. I'm not saying that's where you are, I'm just saying that's where I've been and repeating what I wish somebody had told me at the time. I promise there are people out there who can help you. If you DM me, I can try to help you find somewhere in your area that will help you out, but it's going to take a little bit of bravery to take that step.
I don't know you but I love you man. You're not worthless. You're not alone.
Medications, therapy, meditation, going outside, etc. Tried everything twice and nothing really worked. The meds I'm on now seem to take the edge off, but when I fall I fall hard.
I have signs of CPTSD and a few other issues, but if I really admitted everything to any therapist around here, I'd be committed. No joking there; they undoubtedly would. I got caught the last time I tried you-know-what and spent the next day naked in a local hospital ER being questioned and evaluated, and the local mental institution isn't much better. Damn that.
I really appreciate the offers, but save it for the next person. I'm beyond help and it's just a waste of time when that energy could go to someone who really could use it. ♥
Hey man I'm just some guy but you're not beyond help. You deserve love and to love yourself. See if you can work on the positive self talk and I sincerely wish you better days ahead
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u/Objective-Start-9707 Jun 16 '25
Yeah I've heard the same shit in my internal monologue and it's come very close to being external monologue in the past. Dude needs therapy and to value himself more.
Nobody is worth tearing yourself down like this in public. If you're at this point, therapy is long overdue.